Just a quick morning photo post before work starts. Lupines from yesterday.
Yesterday and today I took Eli out on the trails. I haven’t been able to take the boys out for rides due to Grizward being so lame, so I though it would be nice for Eli to go out and about with me. Both times he’s been quite excited to go.
Yesterday we went out and hit some trails I’ve never been on before. We zigzagged many forest access roads between home and Bruce Crossing, and all points between.
Today we went out looking for some wildflowers in a couple areas knew would have some.
Kind of hard to tell how Eli is feeling about Griz, he doesn’t show emotions like Griz did, though he does seem a little down. When we go for our evening after dinner walks we pass Griz’s grave, he stops for a bit and just looks.
I took today off just because I wanted to. Going grocery shopping in a few to get that out of the way, but I do need to go to Houghton for the shopping as I need to get water conditioner salt at Wallyworld.
With that being said, this will be the first time Eli has ever been alone, ever in his life.
Also…The big item for today is put Griz to rest in the ground. I couldn’t do it yesterday, just too hard.
I have a nice spot for him, under a maple tree that gets the morning sun and a nice breeze through the day. I think he would like it. It’s also quiet there so he can rest in peace. Grizwald never liked loud noises.
I need to find a nice largish rock to place as a headstone of sorts.
This is so fucking hard.
It seems so quiet around here without Griz. There was always the sound of him thumping down on the floor, or his big sighs, or his whining, or something, he was always making some sort of sound.
I think Eli is feeling pretty down about Griz not being around, he’s been hanging really close to me, more so than normal. I plan on taking Eli out for a ride this weekend, he should enjoy that.
Went out for a drive yesterday, just couldn’t be around the house. I headed out Arvon Rd to start, and as things go, I made a few turns here and there, a dead end, and I was a little lost. Along the way as I was going only about 5 MPH looking for wildflowers, I heard water, rushing water. I pulled over for a look and could tell a river was only about 50 feet into the woods, so I grabbed my camera and went in. What a beautiful spot, with lots of large boulders and a good sized river (later on I looked and think it was the Slate River, only way up stream from where I’ve been before).
After driving a ways heading back home, but not really knowing where I was, I came to a garden nursery that I’ve seen many times, but oddly enough, only in the winter. This place is out in the middle of nowhere, but they were quite busy and looked like they had some nice plants and flowers. Too bad I didn’t have the money for anything otherwise I would have stopped. Knowing where I was now, I headed home.
Star-flowered Solomon’s Seal
I don’t know, I just don’t know if I can do it or not, but this might be Grizwalds last day. I’m so fucking stressed out over this. It’s a beautiful day, so I plan to have the boys out while I mow, letting Griz enjoy the day as much as he can. Wish I had someone to talk to about this, how to do this, or if I should do this. This is so fucking hard, as I’ve never had to do this before. Two of my other dogs were much easier, though still very hard. Brook, she wasn’t well, but she died on her own. Sophie, she had a bad stroke, so it was time. Griz is still very alert, just about as he has always been, but his body is/has given out on him. I know he can’t be happy. This is just so goddamn fucking hard.
4:00 PM Update… I can’t do it. I just can not do it right now, not today.
Headed out early this morning and got my grocery shopping done without fear of getting work emails or calls, we’re closed until noon due to the main water valve is beeing replaced. So while at the store I picked up Benadryl and Tylenol PM for Grizwald. Oh, and some cheese for him. That’s all I can say, I picked the stuff up. I have no idea when or if I can do this.
Update… Griz is pissing blood, thick blood. That is what the strong nasty smell is.