Garage Packing

Trying to pack up the garage today, but it’s getting fucking hot out. It’s 84°F at 11:30 AM and climbing fast. I have the majority of the garage done, but probably the worst part still needs doing… the cleanup. I wish I had some other place to store everything so I had more room to clean and put boxes from inside out to the garage. When we moved here we did it in multiple trips, which in retrospect was much easier as there isn’t everything stacked up. Adding to this, I have zero help, either packing and the way it looks, moving. The packing I’m getting done, but the moving, I have no fucking clue what I’m going to do.

Update: Getting to fucking hot to do much more, it’s pushing 90°F now at 1:30 PM. I’m thinking I might mow the front and side lawns still today, they really need it and I don’t what the place I love to look bad.

Freaking Out

Well it didn’t last long. The feeling I had yesterday, a bit of being refreshed and ready to start anew, is gone and now I’m overwhelmed with being freaked out, freaked out about closing dates, moving dates, If I’ll have time, just about everything. I’m back to being shaky with my heart pounding and my left eye isn’t focusing correctly. I’m fucking freaking out.

Tried relaxing a bit by processing another photo from yesterday, but it didn’t work, but here it is anyway.

Update: Mowed the fenced area of the yard, it was getting too long. Also, it’s getting so fucking hot and humid again I can only pack stuff for a short time before I have to sit and cool a bit before getting back to it.

Papers Signed

Today I signed the loan documents, all 29 of them, for a new house. Now I just hope they can push them through in time, but pushing a mortgage through in just over a week is extremely rare, but I guess we’ll see. This coming weekend I’ll be packing up the garage, but for now, I’m taking tomorrow off to get out to the Keweenaw and clear my head a bit. I wanted to get out the past weekend, but it was too damn hot and tomorrow looks pretty good, though there might be some thunderstorms late in the day but I’ll be back by then.

Other news… Grizwald has been having a really hard day today. I know in my heart it’s time, but I just can’t do it yet.

Trying To Pack

I’m packing some today before the heat gets too much. It’s so hard most the time and I have to keep stopping due to breaking down and crying. It’s just so so hard.

On another note… I posted to Facebook the same message as the one prior to this. Not one person is able to help me move on that weekend. I’m also afraid that the weekend of the 18th is going to be too early for my mortgage, I feel I need one more week.

Calling All Able Bodied

Calling all able bodied.
As some of you know, most don’t, I’m moving and soon. I’m in need of people to help with the moving. The move isn’t far, only about 15 minutes away, but it’s the loading and unloading where I need the help. I know it’s quite a distance to travel for most just to work your ass off, but you’ll be able to see the beautiful Keweenaw Bay area.
The moving date is tentatively the weekend of August 18th. Message me if you’re interested in helping. I’ll be forever in your debt.
Damn I hate asking for help, just hate it.

Moving…Again

Well, I guess it’s time to move again. I once said this place would be my last home or move, but as per the norm, I was wrong again. By the middle(ish) of this month I will be moving to a new house. The place isn’t bad, not great, but not bad, though it does have a great building for a work shop. The house is on 20 acres with the Menge Creek running through it. It’s a 3 bedroom with 1 1/2 bath. The kitchen is quite nice and very newly remodeled. There is a pellet stove in the living room to keep things toasty during winter. The place is also at the end of the line as far as electricity, power stops at the house and goes no further. One really good thing is that there is cable to the house for good internet. Even though it’s quite remote, it’s also quite close to town, only about 10 minutes to the grocery store and about 3 minutes to the shore of Keweenaw Bay / L’Anse Bay. There is nice open area for my weather station, so that’s good.
Am I excited? No, not really, but I have to do what I have to do.
I feel so alone going through this, and so sad about having to leave the place I call Home.
Following are a few photos of the place from the listing, I hope to get some more tomorrow when I’m there to sign the purchase agreement.

Driveway

House Front

Kitchen

Living Room

Part of Yard

Property Line

Shop – Out Building

Another Wish

I wish I could be happy again, even if it’s just for one full day. I hate this feeling of sadness, doom and gloom, and dread all the time. I breakout crying for no reason and at all times of the day or night. I just can’t stop it. I wish I could get some sign of hope. I don’t know, I don’t know what I’m even trying to say, just saying I guess.