Morning

I took today off just because I wanted to. Going grocery shopping in a few to get that out of the way, but I do need to go to Houghton for the shopping as I need to get water conditioner salt at Wallyworld.
With that being said, this will be the first time Eli has ever been alone, ever in his life.

Also…The big item for today is put Griz to rest in the ground. I couldn’t do it yesterday, just too hard.
I have a nice spot for him, under a maple tree that gets the morning sun and a nice breeze through the day. I think he would like it. It’s also quiet there so he can rest in peace. Grizwald never liked loud noises.
I need to find a nice largish rock to place as a headstone of sorts.
This is so fucking hard.

Quiet

It seems so quiet around here without Griz. There was always the sound of him thumping down on the floor, or his big sighs, or his whining, or something, he was always making some sort of sound.
I think Eli is feeling pretty down about Griz not being around, he’s been hanging really close to me, more so than normal. I plan on taking Eli out for a ride this weekend, he should enjoy that.

My Beloved Grizwald

Grizwald is gone. He’s off to his next life and adventure.

This is the photo I saw on Pet Finder. I just knew this goofy guy…

Grizwald n Eli in the Kink River, Alaska

Grizwald at Palmer Hay Flats, Alaska

Griz and Eli in Alaska

Taking in the scenery

Cooling off after a long hike

Current photos of Grizwald and Eli

Grizwald under a cherry tree

Maybe Today

I don’t know, I just don’t know if I can do it or not, but this might be Grizwalds last day. I’m so fucking stressed out over this. It’s a beautiful day, so I plan to have the boys out while I mow, letting Griz enjoy the day as much as he can. Wish I had someone to talk to about this, how to do this, or if I should do this. This is so fucking hard, as I’ve never had to do this before. Two of my other dogs were much easier, though still very hard. Brook, she wasn’t well, but she died on her own. Sophie, she had a bad stroke, so it was time. Griz is still very alert, just about as he has always been, but his body is/has given out on him. I know he can’t be happy. This is just so goddamn fucking hard.

4:00 PM Update… I can’t do it. I just can not do it right now, not today.

Grizwald in 2008

Morning Shopping

Headed out early this morning and got my grocery shopping done without fear of getting work emails or calls, we’re closed until noon due to the main water valve is beeing replaced. So while at the store I picked up Benadryl and Tylenol PM for Grizwald. Oh, and some cheese for him. That’s all I can say, I picked the stuff up. I have no idea when or if I can do this.

Update… Griz is pissing blood, thick blood. That is what the strong nasty smell is.

Rough Night With Grizwald

I woke up around 1:00 AM smelling urine, so I got out of bed and checked Griz, he had peed a large amount and it smelled horrible. He’s diaper was soaked and over flowing. The urine is so fucking strong smelling, it’s been hard to get the smell out of the house. I’ve now cleaned the rug 3 times, though I don’t smell anything, or see anything on it, I’m still cleaning it. Griz is getting worse every day it seems. I know what needs to be done, but I can’t afford the vet bill to have him put to sleep. I’ve been reading up on using Benadryl or Tylenol PM to euthanize him, but I’m afraid to do if I do it wrong. I’m at a fucking loss. Really, I wish he would give up on his own, but he’s too damn stubborn.

Area Photo

Saw this on Facebook and thought it was pretty cool. This is US-41 between Baraga and L’Anse.
The arrow points where my house is, sort of. And yes, the water is quite high this year.