I would like to be loved for who I am, with and without my faults.
Is that asking too much?
Well, Eli is still not doing well. I have found that it’s his right shoulder, maybe neck, that is hurting him. Aspirin does seem to help with his pain, that’s good I guess. If he’s not better tomorrow, I think he’ll need to go the vet and see what he has to say.
Just as I’m typing this, Eli cried out quickly with pain. It’s breaking my hart, as if I’m not broken enough.
Now Eli is in pain, I think in his neck. Friday morning he woke up crying around 1:30 AM. Ever since then it seems like he can’t lift his head up all the way, and acting quite odd. I have to hold his treats down low so he can get them. He does go outside, but comes back in quite quick, that’s very unusual for him. All he does is lay down. It seems like maybe a pinched nerve in his neck, maybe.
Update – Not sure, but I think Eli is feeling a little better. I gave him an aspirin, so that could be helping…I hope so.
Fuck it! That’s all I have to say really, just fuck it. I give up.
Too much pain to sleep, was up a midnight. My stomach is bloated and in pain making it quite hard to take a deep breath. Sorry for putting this out here, but I don’t have anyone else to talk to about it right now and just need to say something.
Update – Feeling a tiny bit better, but still not good. I wish I felt better, I’d love to go out for a drive or something.