Trying to be productive today. The weather is great at the moment, with sunny skies, temp at 34°F and rising. Forecast is to get cloudy later today, so I’m going to try and get some things done before the clouds roll in. I feel like I should get out and away from the house, maybe later in the week, I have things I need to do here. The sunshine seems to help me feel a bit better, so hopefully it will last through the day.
’till next time…
Wonderful, just fucking wonderful. Heard a crash, a loud crash, looked outside thinking it was ice that had fallen from the roof, looked up a bit, and shit, there it was, broken window. The window that broken is on the master bedroom, but thankfully only one of the two panes broke. With the sun coming out and heating the metal roof enough to melt the snow, but the temp is below freezing so this makes ice sickles. One, or two, must have been tilted inward as it fell ripping the window screen and breaking the outside pane of one window. Just fucking wonderful.
I have a million things I need to get done around the house, but just don’t feel like, I never do. My ambition is gone. I have a list written of things to do, but none of them get checked off. I should get out of the house more, go do something, but just don’t feel like it. I did finally get a nights sleep last night, but what good did it do, I don’t feel any better. Naps are good, it passes the time away. I break down and cry a lot, and many times for no reason at all.
I don’t know. I just don’t know.
Another sleepless night. Up at 1:30 AM. The difference this time is that I had a hard time falling asleep along with waking up super early. Oh well, fuck it.
Well, I’ve gotten a couple more hours of sleep the past two nights, up at 3:00 AM instead of 1:00. That’s the good news.
Now for the bad, sort of. My main coffee maker has given up the ghost, and my french press has a crack in it. I ordered a new french press from Amazon that was to be delivered today, but just as my luck falls, it has been delayed for a day due to “mechanical failure”, whatever that is.
Ah well, that’s my life…Failure.