Housing and Outing

Went out again today to look at a couple more houses that I had appointments to see, but no dice, again. Everyone I’ve talked with isn’t willing to work a land contract and I can’t get a fucking loan. I need a year or so to get my credit back up and in order. There’s no fucking rentals around due to people displaced from the flooding and many students are staying here because they are afraid they wont be let back in the country due to the Asshole in Chief, the person that stays part-time in the White House.

So after striking out again on housing, I went for a drive out past Copper Harbor to Horseshoe Harbor and went for a little hike and took some photos. I then went down the road further and made a loop back to Copper Harbor, along the shore and back home. Damn, the tourons are out in force today, driving fucking 40mph in 55mph zones, and they fucking wont pull over to let people pass.

Anyway, a bit about the rocks around Horseshoe Harbor…
The rocks at Horseshoe Harbor are 20-30, some areas closer to 40, feet high.
This is some of the oldest exposed bedrock on Earth.
These are the structures formed through sequences of volcanic activity separated by weathering and erosion. Initially, about a billion years ago, lava poured onto the Earth’s surface from openings created by a Mid-continent rift. The lava filled the valley created by the rift, and cooled rather quickly forming the basalt and rhyolite found here. During a time of little or no volcanic activity, weathering and erosion from the edge of the volcanic rift along with ancient mountains led to deposition of sediments in the rift valley. These two processes alternated over time. The immense weight caused the entire area to sink, and become cemented together. Finally, a collision of continental plates caused the entire rock formation to be tilted and revealed the structures that you see here today at Horseshoe Harbor. They are formed mainly of igneous rock, with a high percentage of densely formed basalt and rhyolite. Cementing the conglomerate structure is a small percentage of sedimentary rock such as shale and sandstone which are generally not as strong and durable as igneous formations.

Horseshoe Harbor

Horseshoe Harbor

Horseshoe Harbor 6 Image Pano

Horseshoe Harbor Conglomerate Ridge

Piece of Stromatolite from the Precambrian era and are the earliest known fossils on Earth. Stromatolite can be found throughout the Horseshoe Harbor area.

Pond Along Mandan Rd

Keweenaw Shore

Regrouping

Taking a few days off work to regroup within myself. I’ve been way overly stressed and my health has taken a hit by it. Plans are to get out and into the woods, rivers and Superior shore to find some inner peace. Want to get some photography in while out, that always gives me some peace. I’ll also be looking around at and for houses.

Dread

Woke up this morning, what little sleep I did get, with an overwhelming feeling of dread. I can feel my heart pounding throughout my whole body and I’m shaking continuously. Either way, plan to go out searching again today, zigzagging roads looking for signs that haven’t been posted online. All of them that I have seen so for are for sale by owner and I can tell they are way too much just by the looks of the house, big homes. I do need to stop at the store to get some dog food, but don’t really need anything for me, I haven’t eaten. Also, this week I’ll be packing, for where, I have no clue.

Hope Shattered

Went to bed and woke up this morning with hope again, even mowed the front. Now that hope is shattered. I made more calls today to a couple local people to see if they knew of any rentals, land contract, rent to buy homes. Nothing again. Went to L’Anse and drove around. Talked to some people about a house that was for sale there, but I think it’s too much. I have no place to go. I’m trying, I’m trying. And now I’m in pain again, so I need to lay down.

Lupine

Feeling really quite stressed today, but was able to process a couple photos.
Plan on getting some of the yard mowed today, although I’ll be taking it quite easy.

Lupine

Lupine

Nothing, Not A Fucking Thing

I drove to Houghton then north through most all of the Keweenaw today looking for a house. Nothing, not a fucking thing. I did look at a few. I’ll be driving around again Sunday in other directions to look. Today I did at least stop at a couple spots to take some photos, but really wasn’t into it much, and I even brought most all my gear. Not feeling well really, I’m sure not eating doesn’t help. Just about every time I get upset, which is often, I have pains in my chest then I feel throbbing in my head. They don’t seem to last long. I just fucking lost on what to do. I can get money, but it’s not enough. I keep thinking if I only had the balls to off Giz and Eli, and then myself. There’s no way I could leave them alone. I have to stop now, I hurt.

Move

I have to move out of the only real place I have felt at home. I love it here. I have looked and looked for a rental, or even a super cheap place to buy, but my credit is shit. Most rentals don’t allow dogs, and anything I can afford you can even see the mold and shit in the pictures. I cry all day long, really I’ve been crying for a year now, but at least before recently I had a little hope. All that hope is gone, and the way I feel so am I. For days now I’ve been on the phone and web continuously trying to either get some money or asking about a rental. I haven’t eaten either, just don’t feel like it. The dogs are always hanging really close to me, especially Grizwald, he knows and Eli lays down behind my chair. I keep telling them I’m sorry and that I don’t know what to do. I guess I was wrong the other day in a post about caring.
Tomorrow I’m taking the day off and going for a drive, maybe I’ll see a house somewhere, I have to, or maybe a tree.
Edit: I was just looking on Facebook, and don’t enjoy that much now, so maybe I’m done with that to.
Also, to top all this off, I feel like the best friend I’ve ever had is slipping away.

To-dos Around The House

Got a few things done today, but didn’t work all that hard, sort of a relaxing day really. I am planning to take tomorrow off to get out and into the woods.
One thing that has bugged me for quite some time is where a burn barrel was. It was right out on the main side lawn and stuck out like a sore thumb. So, I moved it…at last.
I’ll update this post with more lilac photos.

Yard without a burn barrel

Forget-me-not

I have no idea what these are. They have a stem sort of like snake grass, but smooth it’s whole length and the flower is similar to clover. The leaf is similar to the stem.
Update – These are wild Chives. Time for a baked potato! 🙂

White lilacs

Grizwald under a cherry tree