Another Dark…

And gloomy ass day with light rain and temps in the low 40s. I’d love to get out and about, but with it being so damn gloomy, it’s just not worth it. So, I guess I’ll try and get something more done around this house, or just sleep as that seems to be the only way I get any sleep.

Update about noon… Not having a very good day. I am getting some things done, but whenever I can’t find what I’m looking for I start to break down again start to cry. I just can’t find anything I’m looking for and everything that’s still in boxes (most still is because I have no place to put it yet) is a fucking mess.

One Hour

Looks like sleeping tonight isn’t happening, at all. I slept for about 1 hour, woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep, so here I am at 12:45 AM.

Update 10:00 AM… Trying to run speaker wire between the wall and ceiling instead of draped across the floor as they are now. This is not going well.

Update 6:00 PM… After fighting with the speaker wire for awhile, I sat back to relax a bit, next thing I knew, just about 3 hours had passed. I zonked. I did finally get the wires ran after that long nap.
I need some shelving, as I don’t have any place to put books, trinkets and stuff. Need to get my shop setup I guess, but I need some heat in there, it’s fucking cold in that building.

Think I’ve Figured It Out

Yes, I think I know why I’ve been in such a funk for so long…
I feel displaced.
Nothing around me feels familiar, recognizable or homeish, with the exception of the furniture and stuff. I don’t feel at home, as if I’ve been placed somewhere unknown . I’m driving an unknown car. The property feels like it’s someone else’s. The list goes on.
Related to this, I’ve been putting up curtains and putting down a number of area rugs, in hope it will make this place look and feel better. Also I’ve put knobs on the kitchen cabinet doors and drawers. I have no idea at all if any of it fits in together or looks good being color blind, but I guess who give a shit.

Rearranging

I’m moving furniture around again today in the hopes to make more room and just plain have it work better. I have to say, I really hate open floor plans and the fact that the pellet stove is center along one wall and sticking out like a sore thumb. Wish I had someone to talk to about this crap.
Weather today is pretty crappy, it’s a cool 44° with light rain.

Not Much…

Not much happening here today, just work. It’s a beautiful day out, nice sunny skies, temp pushing 50° and hardly a breeze. Most of the leaves have fallen now, so pretty soon it will be just a grey landscape until the snow falls to stay. I do have plenty of stuff to do around here, but I’m just not feeling it.
I guess that’s it for now…

Well, something kind of exciting, for me anyway. I got a new phone. I now have a Samsung Galaxy S9+. Pretty much the same as the Note 8/9, just without the stylist that I hardly ever used. I got the phone through Charter/Spectrum for $45 per month including the service.

Fucking Squirrels

I have squirrels, red squirrels, chewing inside the walls and ceiling. Yesterday I put together a trap/drowning thing to try and kill them off. I went to TrueValue and they cut me two 4″ PVC pipes 5′ long each. I put peanut butter in the top opening then some more about 1 1/2 foot down the pipe, the pipe then sits in a bucket of water. Once the squirrel get in the pipe, it can’t get out and drowns. Unlike Chipmunks, squirrels can swim, so that’s why the use of a long pipe, they can’t climb back up, it’s too slippery. I guess the one benefit of not sleeping is that while I’m awake and making some noise, they keep quiet and stop chewing.

Lake Superior Performance Rally

Pretty cool having these cars pass right by the house. I stood out at the end of the driveway, waved and took photos. A good number of the honked as they went by, and a few waved. I tell ya, the smell they give off is definite of some high octane fuel.

I’ll edit and add more photos and info later…

I haven’t had this much fun taking photos in a long time, just wish I had someone to talk to about it.
I saw other photos on FB with some carnage done to the cars, one even on it’s side. I’m sure this was quite a challenge for the drivers with the snow and slush.