I don’t know, I just don’t know if I can do it or not, but this might be Grizwalds last day. I’m so fucking stressed out over this. It’s a beautiful day, so I plan to have the boys out while I mow, letting Griz enjoy the day as much as he can. Wish I had someone to talk to about this, how to do this, or if I should do this. This is so fucking hard, as I’ve never had to do this before. Two of my other dogs were much easier, though still very hard. Brook, she wasn’t well, but she died on her own. Sophie, she had a bad stroke, so it was time. Griz is still very alert, just about as he has always been, but his body is/has given out on him. I know he can’t be happy. This is just so goddamn fucking hard.
4:00 PM Update… I can’t do it. I just can not do it right now, not today.